I've become aware over the past 4-6 weeks that I am slowly fading. I don'tthink anything has faded away yet, but the edges are starting to blur. Iunderstand intellectually that this is to be expected but now that I know it'shappening, I want to say, "please stop".
It won't stop and in fact it's only going to speed up. I just feel as thoughI am slowly leaving a room and I can't help but wonder - will I know that Ihave left the room for the last time when that time comes?" Data wouldpoint to no, but I changed my surname to Hope so I'm going to cling to aperhaps instead.
I am grateful for the time I have right now to spend with those that I loveand to reconnect with old friends. I had Debbie Baker over this weekend, and itwas such a joy to see her. She lives on a rural property and is building a garden;we were always a bit spooky that way. Kind of like weird twins who found eachother in a nightclub. Yeah, OK that is not a thing. Anyway, it was just solovely to reconnect, and we have plans to catch up again soon. I am lookingforward to that.
In fact, I have decided to look forward to everything until ...